We’re two weeks into 2020 and I’m already feeling a little overwhelmed. Maybe overwhelmed is a bit of an exaggeration, but I certainly don’t feel on top of things. Just to catch you up, if you’re new here, I run a business with my husband whilst home educating our two daughters and trying to keep on top of my blogging commitments. There’s a fair amount on my plate, it’s safe to say.
I had a morning to myself just before Christmas and it was glorious. Armed with my new planner, I went to an independent coffee shop. I planned out my goals for the year and what was happening during January. By the time I came home I felt really positive and I thought I’d been careful not to plan too much for myself either. Something I was definitely guilty of last year was making huge lists of things to accomplish without really giving myself the time and space to do so. Clearly I’ve been feeling overwhelmed for a while!
Why Am I Feeling Overwhelmed?
I’ve been talking to Andy a lot over the past week about how I’m feeling, and I can’t say that it’s just the New Year that has brought on this feeling. It boils down to feeling like I have too much to do and not enough time to myself.
I knew that taking the girls out of school would be life-changing. I’d gotten used to dropping them off for just over six hours a day and then getting on with my to do list. Of course, now they’re at home and the responsibility falls largely to me. This isn’t a criticism of my husband at all, he’s busy working on our business all day. I love having them around and we’re all definitely happier with home education, but it has gotten rid of any pockets of time I had to myself. It’s also gotten rid of the time where I could work. It’s been a huge change and I’m not convinced that I’m dealing with it as well as I’d like.
I’d planned out a bunch of blog posts and a new YouTube video for January. Not loads, but something I thought was manageable. I’ve only done about half of that so far and, stupidly, it’s really annoyed me. I’m irritated that I haven’t met a self-imposed deadline that, actually, doesn’t really matter. I’d also planned to create some business content (I haven’t) and I tried to set some goals for my well being too. Ironic, huh?
Dealing With Feeling Overwhelmed
How do you deal with feeling overwhelmed? That’s not a rhetorical question, I’m actually asking.
I know that I need to make more time for something for myself, other than reading. I also know that I want to do some yoga, at least a couple of times a week. Sewing is another thing I enjoy doing. I think my problem at the moment is I spend all day with the girls, and by the time they go to bed I haven’t the mental energy to do anything else. So I read, or I binge watch Netflix with Andy. I don’t really know what the answer is there!
This blog post started off as a why-I-haven’t-posted-in-over-a-week kind of post and has ended up being a bit of a moan. I apologise, but I feel better for it. Of course just moping about what I haven’t done yet isn’t going to change anything. I need to go back to my goals for the month and prioritise. I need to block out some time, even if it is evenings, and remind myself why those tasks are important to me. As for making time for me, I’ve got no ideas there…